Do you ever feeling like something is missing in your life? Do you ever feel like what’s missing is actually you?
I hope you had a great Cinco de Mayo weekend! There’s something that’s been on my mind that I feel like a lot of people can relate to so I figured I would share.
I have recently (okay, you caught me…maybe not just recently) been feeling like there’s been something missing in my life, yet, I don’t know what it is. I recently got out of (what I would call) a long-term relationship, and I felt like some part of me got lost in it. Like some part of me got so comfortable being wrapped up in poor habits that I didn’t know how to pull myself out. Have you ever been in that situation?
I just felt like the longer that I was in it, the harder it was for me to get myself out- and part of me didn’t want to. I was going out for just about every meal. I stopped working out completely. I wasn’t posting consistently and completely fell off of social media and stopped talking and hanging out with people that I used to call my friends. And you know what the worst part of it all was? I knew that I was doing it. I was 100% conscious of the poor decisions I was making and yet, didn’t turn it around. It was kind of like watching myself go down a dark path, but just not caring enough to stop and run back the other direction. I was comfortable. It turned into my routine. And secretly inside, I hated it. I was so unhappy with myself and still I didn’t change. It was like, the further away I got from who I was, the more I didn’t want to put in the effort to try to get myself back. I wasn’t putting in the effort because I thought it would be too hard, and yet, I kept making it harder on myself by doing nothing. Oh, the vicious cycle.
Something finally clicked in my head where I just couldn’t do it anymore. I was honestly sick of the person that I was becoming.
I was desperate to make a change. And after taking a leap of faith, I finally found the courage within myself to make that much needed change and leave behind what was holding me down. Since then I’ve basically had to start over. Start over in my fitness journey, start over in my overall health journey, and start over in a lot of my relationships. It’s scary, and at times the loneliness definitely sets it, but you just have to stay true to you. If something doesn’t feel right, it usually isn’t right.
SoFitSoPretty is dedicated to all of the strong women out there. Yes, YOU. Believe me, my life isn’t perfect and I struggle with a lot of things a lot of the time…and that’s OKAY. It makes us human, right?
Whatever you’re battling in your own life, you CAN overcome it. If something is weighing you down, free yourself. Start doing what you love again. Start going out and making new friends and rekindling old relationships with previous friends. But most importantly, BE HAPPY. You have the power to bring happiness into your life…or…not. But either way, you get to choose. Are you going to make a change based out of inspiration or desperation?
What’s that quote that people often say? It’s not going to be easy, but, oh yeah…it’s worth it.
Here’s to new beginnings and new self-discovery.